Because You're A Woman

Having set aside this weekend to write, I had no excuse this morning not to sit down at my laptop and start. But as usual, when faced with what I consider a monumental task, I dithered and found odds and bits of jobs to do, that in all honesty could have waited for another day. To try and discipline myself and clear my mind, I lay on the sofa in my conservatory, listening to some worship tapes and watching the birds feed from the nutpen hanging from the outside lamp. I prayed. I handed up to God the issues that are currently worrying me - why did He place my daughter such a long way away in Cornwall when she moved last year? Having just returned home from another brief but joy filled stay with her and her family I struggle now with why I have yet another set of tearful goodbyes in my life. But I trust in His overview - he sees the big picture. When the time is right we shall be closer again I know. I asked Him to convict me of my wish to write this second book, a book that has been on my heart for several years now, even before I finished ‘Because you’re a Woman’. And as I lay there watching the birds the answer came. The words that came into my head so clearly:

“You have been pregnant for a long time now. It is time to give birth to this new child. Yes the birth will be a struggle and painful, but it will bring so much light and joy.” 

No doubt there then!

So I have been tapping away now for five hours and it is finally begun. And I am enjoying it, the thoughts and words tumbling around and out of my mind. Let us pray that I can keep the discipline and block the days that I need to channel these thoughts into the form that He needs.

Jacki Rodikis - Saturday July 16th 2011